Today concludes the trip. One final full day, and we decided to go to a temple in Nara. And of course to see the bowing deer. I'm so glad that we did Nara on the last day because the deer reminded me of Ella and I missed her so much walking around 😭

We also went to the big Buddha temple at Nara and I realize that this is what I love travelling for. Big religious sites that makes me feel smaller than. I mean not even religious sites, but when we went to the castle it also made me feel a certain way. Like I am so small and insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Things that are old, like hundreds and thousands of years ago, there were people that lived every day lives in the same spot that I'm walking in. I like the feeling, it takes a lot of pressure off of me. Like my life is really that insignificant, so why am I anxious about it?

I had a great dinner with Kevin tonight. We had lots of deep chats and I guess I got a lot off my chest. As much as I want to do the schooling, the fact that I'm unsure - not just financially, but also about my future in the industry, means that I probably shouldn't do it. I don't know, I guess I've just been thinking a lot - what if this is the push I needed to break free from the golden handcuffs. What it my purpose and want to do something larger than me is meant for the now. What if I was meant to go into non profits, or be a part of something larger than I. What if I don't want to be in the design space anymore? Or part of the tech space anymore? I have so many transferrable skills, I could be putting that to good use elsewhere. Where people actually need it.

I don't know, guess it's something I get to reflect about. Perhaps on the flight.

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY MAN SOON!! :)