Missed a couple of days - nothing to report really. A couple of nice thrifting days. But now I'm sick. Like flu, or a really bad cold - can't get out of bed, has vertigo, and want to throw up - kinda sick.

This trip has been an adventure, I don't think I like taking trips when I know I shouldn't be taking a trip right now. In fact, this whole trip I should've been focused on finding my next gig. But instead I'm bopping around Japan like I have money to do so.

I'm stressed, and it's making me sick. Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful for this trip and opportunity. But I can't help but be stressed. I'm doing school soon, which means flying to London multiple times this year. What does this mean financially for me? This is scary, and I feel like I'm in it all alone. I'm scared.

I kinda want to go home… just move on already. This 'marking the end of a chapter with a life changing trip' is so much pressure. This idea that I have to have a good time, I shouldn't be stressed, I shouldn't think about the situation. But that's the thing, it doesn't make it go away. The situation still stands. i'm still upset. This trip wasn't my usual trip, getting lost in museums and feeling small in churches. I mean I got a little bit of that in temples, but it's so touristy here. It's crowded, and it's hard to feel anything other than overwhelmed. Sadly, I think I have to say that Tokyo wasn't a fav of mine.

Feeling homesick. Never thought I'd ever say that.