Arrived at the airport much too early. I wanted to give myself enough time because I'm not familiar with this airport, and I have checked luggage. You know, be safe. But I'm here bored out of my mind.

Kevin is in the last leg of his journey. I cannot wait until I see him!! EEP! The plan is to land, get to the hotel, and then immediately get a coffee so I can be awake until bedtime. Being sick has really fucked up my sleeping schedule. Or maybe I just haven't adjusted to the time change just yet. It's weird, when I fly to Europe I don't have to adjust at all. I mean I guess I am on the opposite side of the world.

Brenda takes Asia. And for the first time at that. Kinda crazy to think about it. I always imagined Vietnam being my first trip, but here I am. Korea first, and now Japan. My next trip should be Vietnam… or Hong Kong. That'd be fun.

Once upon a time I said to someone that I was done galavanting around the world, all I wanted was to be with them. Desperately grasping at something that was never mine to begin with. A part of me knew that even then, I was losing myself. I was giving a part of me up in hopes to be with this person. Which is beyond sad.

I was promised at the end of last year that I'll be shown love. Real love. Love so genuine that I'm not pretending to be anyone. I'm authentically myself. So myself that it scares me because of how vulnerable that really is. We'd galavant the world together. Resolve any issues together. Know everything about each other. The way he's a little grumpy first thing in the morning before coffee. Or the way you can tell he's saying "I love you" with just one look into my eyes. That look. It's like I just know.

Wish he were here with me. Missed him a lot in Korea. But I have a feeling I'll miss him a little less when I'm in Japan hehe. Kevin and I are going to have a blast, I feel it. The food!! DROOL. The cute shops!! We must hit up a photobooth, a requirement.

Well, this is the longest post thus far, and we can thank being hella early to the airport. Nothing like a little emo journalling at the airport. I'm in a lovey mood. Time to blast some lovey tunes and vibe out to my life being pretty darn okay.

(you know, aside from the fact that I don't have a job. but I'm compartmentalizing, so really that's not even on my mind and is not going to ruin the feeling. yup. still feeling pretty darn okay)